Apparently

........I lied.

I'm Back!

I'M BAAACCCKKKKK.........

And I intend to stay this time around.

I came back so I can write write write and occasionally read, but most importantly, write write write.

I'm challenging myself to blog twice a week and post a short story every other week.

Fighting!

Discourage.

That's my emotion of the day.

So I decided to find inspiration and encouragement.

<3

If you hear a voice within you saying you are not a painter than by all means PAINT..and that voice will be SILENCED. - Van Gogh

"The brick walls are there for a reason, not to keep us out but to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough; they’re there to stop 'the other people'" - Paul Rausch,

The Last Lecture

Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know IT'S NORMAL and the most important thing you can do is DO A LOT OF WORK … It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions … It’s gonna take awhile … You’ve just GOTTA FIGHT your way through.

— IRA GLASS

This inspires me

“If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,
not only I could enjoy falling in love but I also
wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.'
I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do. Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today
stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It's enough
to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

“Mom, can I get married?”

From the Diary 1 Litre of Tears

Roomies!

I hate this picture of me, but whatever. The girl with the weird pose is my suite mate Allison and the other girl is my room mate Heather.

College dorm pics!

My closet

My messy desk

And my unmade bed! I have to use the chair to get on it lol. I even have a mini coffee maker, a mini fridge, and a mini microwave.

Words of Wisdom

This is what I said today when I was mad at the vacuum cleaner.

"IF THIS DOESN'T MOVE IT'S NOT GOING ANYWHERE!"

I didn't realize what I said until my step dad said "That makes sense."

*pats self on back*

Way to state the obvious.

With logic like that, I'll do great in college....yeah.